Summer...how I miss thee....

  Summer is over...already? I realize that those of my family and friends who are not teachers, will have no sympathy here, but I will boldly rant anyways. I don't have any wild stories, or distant travels to share with the reader in my "Best Summer Ever" essay here, but it was in fact, the best summer ever.
   Jake, Peter and I spent three days in Disneyland, and I finally learned how to enjoy myself. We made it to all of the rides on our list, and had enough time to watch some soccer at the ESPNZone. There were times when I was ready to admonish some children who were clearly going apeshit, but then I remembered I was off the clock...and at Disneyland.... and I dialed it back( much to Jake and Peter's  relief).
   The rest of the summer was spent hiking, doing local trips, and appreciating the time I had with my now taller than me teenage son. He has decided to join Peter and I in the veggie lifestyle, and is continuing to pursue his passion for music as a guitar player, and Beatles aficionado. Jake actually joined us in playing Cataan at Mission Coffee. Such nerdy behavior must be hereditary. Poor guy.
   The break was also a good time to further fall in love with mi novio. It has almost been a year, and it really has been phenomenal. He cooks, plays soccer, loves trivia, and me... what more could I ask for? Since he is finishing grad school, because two bachelors and a law degree weren't enough, he had the summer to spend with me. He is now applying to jobs, so that was probably our last summer we will have to spend together, responsibility free. Obviously I want him to find a job he loves, but it was great having so much time to just "be"with him. We were able to lay down that solid foundation on which a really good relationship is forming. I was also able to learn that sometimes he runs late, he cannot multitask, and loves bagel sandwiches. He learned that my mind never stops running, and that the skill of tuning out my constant rambling is a necessary skill for all those close to me.  Bottom line, we learned those little quirks that make us real, and want to be together even more.
    Bonding with my son, falling more in love with Peter, and spending time being with those I love, made the first days of school fast approach seem daunting. But I discovered that the beauty of the start of school, is taking what I learned over the summer, and keeping it with me in my heart as I set forth to teach a new grade and a new set of kids. And I will look forward to winter break!
 
   

Encore No More

   This last weekend, the bf and I went to see the Cold War Kids in concert at the Fox in Oakland.  The show was great, although I found earplugs are now necessary for these old ears, and that I enjoyed my seat in the balcony as opposed to standing in a mass to get closer to the stage.  As the end of the show grew near,  I knew we were about to participate in the lame tradition of....the encore.
   How did this whole thing get started? The band plans for the encore, the crowd assumes that the end is not the actual end, but that they will be required to stand, clap and yell, so the band will grace the audience with their presence once more. Why not just play a great show, with a full set list, and accept that when time is up the show is over.
  What other situation would one expect the audience to beg them to come back on stage, regardless of the quality of the performance?  I say we start the movement to end the ego driven madness. When the set is over, and the band says goodnight, everyone should just walk out. Nobody will wait for the secret "lights on" signal to know if that is really the end, or just the pretend end. Let us preserve the encore for what it was originally intended. For a performance that is so mind blowing that we just can't imagine it ending. How great will a performer feel when they know they have actually earned that adoration of an entire audience, rather than some contrived routine in which the crowd blindly participates.
     I was trying to reflect back on shows that I have attended to see when this trend started, but my first concert was NKOTB...so perhaps my history is skewed. But, there is a worst offender of the encore abuse, and it pains me to say it.....Sir Paul McCartney. We waited 2 hours for him to start, no openers, and he did a whopping three encores. Or at least that is what I heard...Jakob and I left after the last song. I have to admit, this was probably not the concert to exercise my anti-encore movement, but it was cold, and sf traffic sucks. Time to take a stand people...end the automatic encore!

Shoulding Ourselves

  I once had a therapist tell me that there is no should. How can that be true? I am a shouldaholic. I should be doing laundry right now, I should be eating healthier, I should be spending less money... What does that mean really? That I am going to be doing these things or am I not? If should were a color it would be gray, somewhere in between doing something and not doing something. Is "should" a way to pile on guilt without actually getting off my ass and doing the activity? I don't really want to clean, but if I at least feel guilty about not cleaning, that is better than just letting it go. Except, either way, my house is messy, only now I have spent so much energy worrying about it, that I just want to go to sleep.
 "There is no try, only do or do not." Yoda
  What if we all lived like this. No more gray area, just do it or don't. Just think of the amount of time that will be freed up if we stopped thinking of what should be done, and just do it, or forget about it and move on? My goal for the next month is to stop using the "S" word altogether. Maybe by doing this, I will actually get more done, or at least stop caring so much if I don't. 

Found

  When I started this blog, I was a dating rookie. For the first time in my life I was able to date and find out a lot about myself and what I wanted and didn't want. In a way, I feel like I have evolved into a new person. But really, I had to go looking outside myself to find out that all I ever really needed was within me all along. It isn't what the world held for me, it's what I can bring to it.
   Having gone through all of this, I was finally ready when I went on my first date with "the guy", Peter. From the start we were effortlessly on the same page. There was no drama, or long periods of silence where I had to wonder what was going on. Never, have I been with someone who cares about me so much, and is unquestioningly there for me. He is a man that I can giggle with about Brawndo, as much as I can have a debate on the ethics of patents on a genetically modified soybean. He inspires me to push myself, whether it be to play soccer or to expand my horizons with food (no small feat).
  Over the holiday, he met Jake, and it could not have gone better. The three of us went snowshoeing together, in four feet of fresh snow at Donner Lake. My toes were numb, teeth chattering, but the sight of the two of them trekking through the powder, warmed me up instantly. Not only did Jake like him, but he looked up to him. We spent the week there with his family, and it felt as if Jake and I always belonged.
 I don't know how to express how much it means to me to have found someone who feels like home to me. Loving him has been the easiest thing I have ever done in my life. The last few years have been hard, but if the path led me to him, then it was all worth it.